and so it is ...

i can't believe that this time, when i get back and write here, it's all because of him. got a phone call from ekta today, he said that it's true. he's now with inggrid. shi*!! i thought i'm prepared, and then again i do feel ok, and more relaxed receiving the news. but i guess, i built it over my own fear. if this thing eventually did happen in the past. just in time for my pausing period. had enough with my surroundings. don't feel comfortable with the things that once made me feel so. i feel like i want to isolate myself, and now, the reasonings go stronger by the minute.

and so it is ...